Old Video Game Commercials

Okay some more on this mario paint. I spend weeks of my childhood in this game!

The Siqest thing ever

Video Games You Have To Play

These are just a few games you must play in your life. I will post a bunch more every week.

Time for an update

Chad and Dani came over last night to hang out and play some video games with me and Sarah. I was super stoked to hang out with them being is that i had a shitty week. School is bringing me down. I am getting pretty overwhelmed with my Operating Systems and Concepts class. My professor is a really nice guy he just can't seem to get the information we need to know on our exams across. I am going to school to become a game programmer. This line of work is extremely hard to get into and super competitive. I don't know what else i want to do with my life but this. At the same time I have no self esteem and little drive to keep on top of my school work. I think this stems from caring so little about my own well being. On the other hand if anyone I care for needed anything i would set everything aside to help them out. The only feeling of accomplishment I get is from helping people out and getting a siq killing spree or dismembering bodies in video games.

Feeling Amazing\ICP

When i woke up this morning i knew the day was going to be as amazing as the night before i woke. Sarah, Chad, and I went to get some burritos. Sarah found a sick ass ICP wallet in the parking lot. Sean Flinn I have your wallet! I'm going to mail it to him asap. I left it in Chad's car. haha. I hope somebody sees it and gives him a weird look. After breakfast/lunch Sarah had to work so we dropped her off and left for Mike's house. Chad and Mike had to work on some new song pianos is going to be working on. It sounds really fucking good. I can not wait to hear all the stuff they are gonna be recording with Chad, Dave, and Josh. After they were done we got some subway shit. Then we left for Baltimore to see a show at the copy cat. The show got moved to some ghetto place. Some hood rat was trying to sell us oxycotton when we were chilling on the stoop. The first band The Blue Letter was so fucking loud and really good. Some songs kind of drew out a bit and kinda got boring but the second song was tight as shit. They are a three piece. The guitarist had like 4 cabs he played out of and the biggest fucking pedal board. Blake from me and him call it us plays bass and had 3 bass cabs. There was so much fucking sound it was tight. Who calls so loud played second. It was tight as fuckkkk! The guitar was kinda shrill but other then that amazing. Mike got bubble guts from subway. The night ruled other then Mikes poop.

On the way home me and Chad had a long talk about life, struggles in life, hardships, childhood, coming to age, best friends, music, people we love, our futures, jobs, happiness, love, hugs from our moms, and all things and everything. I love him so much. I'm tired and I love you all so much. I am so fucking happy with life right now!

This is what ive been listening to:

l’antietam - Arthur Carr
Russian Circles - Station
Daughters - Hell Songs
Pianos Become The Teeth - Saltwater
Planes Mistaken For Stars - Fuck with Fire


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watch in the end about 4 mins in

Buster rules!

I had a shitty day at work.
My car is dead.
I'm have really bad gas.
Sarah's car is dead.
My mom called me when i was at work and left a voice mail about how she is getting really depressed. She almost overdosed on pills and beer last summer. So im really worried. Its really hard when your mother is super far away. She has been my best friend all my life. I'm so glad to have her still, but it feels like she is already dead. I miss her. I'm feeling pretty shitty today. This entry is very different than my first one.

I played some call of duty 4 and reached the tenth and final prestige. This made me happy. I played some guitar. Hung out with Buster. Now i'm going to try and stay positive and just snuggle buster to bed.

Tomorrow I'm going to try and make some furniture with spare wood in my garage.



GARGOYLE COFFEE TABLES!

life, inspiration, music, friends, love, manworld, 2008

So Chad gave me his old amp. I love him for that and among many other things. I've been really needing a new amp for about a year. I've been playing my guitar alot more lately. I haven't been really playing guitar. I have been just spending hours creating effects on my pod xt live pedal. Its really nice for experimenting. I've been recording on some old cassette recorder. I gave Alex one of my tapes to put to digital. I can't wait to hear it.

I've been so happy the past few months. I'm not sure if I'm finally getting over Brian's death or what. Although i still have nights were i just think about him and times we shared and it brings me to tears. Just typing this about him is making me a little upset. I usually don't like thinking about it or talking about him, but the other day at work a waitress asked me where i got my nickname from. I told her:


"Oh just an old friend.."
"Where is he?' she replied.
"Dead." I answered.

That must have been awkward for her.

"If you don't mind me asking how did he die" she asked.
"He killed himself, well he hung himself while on a family vacation to Maine"

She just looked at me as if she was about to vomit then just walked away.


This incident fucked my whole day up, but when i woke up the next morning i felt alot better. I feel as though i am hitting a "coming to age" point in my life right now. I'm feeling like i want to do a million productive things in my life. Everything from reading books, writing music with Sarah, working on my car, cleaning my room, signing up for school, ect. There are so many people who i have inspired me this year. Sarah most of all! She is honestly the best thing to every happen to me. I've never met some one with so much will power and determination. This girl goes to school full time, works full time, takes care of all her bills, a long story short, she does the damn thang. She got straight A's at CSM and makes more money then i do and all i do is work. haha. I love her so much. Chad is the best friend anyone could ever have. The siqest freestyle artist. Amazing musician. Total nerd and member of manworld! He has inspired me to read more often and to stick with music. BMonsta is a siq mutha fucka. He has inspired me to go to school and move up to Baltimore to become a software programmer for Bethesda games. I love this man! I'm just so glad for all my friends as of right now. I can't wait to move up to Baltimore, meet amazing people and to get super close with them! I love all the dudes from Pianos become the teeth! check them out here.